"Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your exceedingly great reward." But Abram said, “Lord God, what will You give me?" (Gen 15,1-2)

If we see man's conversation with God in Scripture, then it is usually easier for us to understand a man. He speaks from our perspective, we understand his world, thoughts, motives, fears - we are simply of the same "family". It is more difficult for us to understand God. It seems that he is somehow unpredictable - sometimes he comes unexpectedly, and other times when it would be so nice to see him come (because one has a problem), he is hiding or lingering somewhere. Other times he comes, and instead of focusing on that very problem, he starts talking about something else that doesn't seem to have anything to do with it. He often speaks in pictures, hints ... It is obvious that spiritual communication is not an easy discipline and a man must learn it all his life.

Now we are witnesses of God's conversation with Abram and it is good to realize that this is not a common prayer. Before, Abram must have sighed several times about his fading hope of having a son. But now God has visited him in a vision, and they are speaking "face to face." God comes and assures him that he will reward him. Then Abram asks him sadly: What do you want to give me, God?

Is it okay so?

God, the source of everything, giving his gifts for free and now coming to him with a completely positive message, has already given Abram a lot, and he knows it. But he still didn't get what he wanted most. Despite the glorious victory in the battle, despite the supernatural protection, all the blessings he has received so far, there is still an empty room in his deep being. The sadness of his heart now gushed out.

One of the messages of the Bible, especially of the book of Psalms, is that in God we find place not only for praise or supplication, but also for the sorrows of our heart. We can pour it out here... but then raise our eyes, pull ourselves together and believe that everything has not been lost yet, the last battle is not over, our God is not dead and our world has not yet collapsed. God understood Abram in his weakness and he understands us. He didn't blame him, on the contrary, he reassured him even more.

And that's why it's okay so.